Monday, July 5, 2010

I Knew I Couldn't Stay Away

One year ago, I gave up childcare. For good. I left and I was never coming back. I can be quoted as saying, "I'm never working in childcare again"; "I'm so done working with kids, I'm going to work with computers, at a desk.", or "childcare? I'd rather eat Vegemite".

I've been working my toosh off in school ever since. My end goal was to be a stay-at-home mommy / freelance Graphic Designer but in the end I wasn't sure what the point of all this hard work was. Sure to pay the bills but, really? Ooh, that's a life.

Being a big fan of the Law of Attraction, I finally stopped and asked myself, "what would bring me the greatest joy?" Well duh, to be a stay-at-home mommy, become completely financially self-sufficient through my art, work from home, and have a bumpin' social life like the good ol' days. So, that's what I'm doing. (I still have the bestest friends in the world, but I moved far away from them all, waaah).

I was scared poopless at first even though financially I would be more than OK. What is it with chickening out when it comes to doing what you've always wanted to do? It took me a good two weeks to realize that I could actually do it and then... The fun part!

I decided school was something I was going to do on the side. I'm still taking the same course load but managed to get my school down to one day per week. So long as I'm taking three classes, I get to keep my student loan. I started setting up for childcare and have a a family lined up. I've applied for two Graphic Design gigs off Craigslist -- I didn't get them but at least I'm putting myself out there right!? Take into consideration that I'm soon going to be earning income and not paying childcare fees -- la dee da dee da!!

Do you notice how when you do exactly what you're supposed to be doing (big Law of Attraction guru here), everything falls into place? Well, the stars are aligning and my financial situation is suddenly fine (although it's hard to believe it and I have huge spending anxiety -- I still sneak onto the Skytrain cuz I have to save my tickets for a rainy day, and spend $40/week on groceries.

It's true, I've come full circle. On July 20th my home is officially open for childcare. I don't have to eat Vegemite and oh my gosh, just wait until you see the website I am building for my childcare service!